This is one of the hardest topics for me to write about as it’s still a very raw topic for me. Saying that though it’s never easy to talk about such personal topics but they need to be addressed nonetheless. I’ve had such a rollercoaster of a time in sixth form so far. Nothing has been simple or easy but it has taught me a lot about myself and my resilience too. Then again life is never simple!
I wanted to talk about emotions and low days/ depression as it’s something I’m dealing with at the moment and I find writing helps me to get my emotions out. I have always felt ashamed of feeling how I do and have always blamed myself for what I’m feeling which isn’t the healthy thing to do but it’s what usually happens. I’m starting to realise that everyone has dark moments in their lives and it isn’t always anyone’s fault, you have to learn how to deal with these difficult times for both my sister and everyone reading. It can help to show you a resilience you didn’t know you had. Although it’s also ok to realise you are not ok some days. I had a slight break down in the library the other day to one of my friends and that’s ok too, sometimes you need to let everything out. I become very easily overwhelmed these days, hopefully life will calm down soon. I am slowly getting a better grip on my emotions but it’s taking some time. Although everyone says year 13 is difficult, I’ve been having a tough life with more personal matters too. I have been feeling depressed recently which is difficult for me to say but it’s the truth. I want to write this post to show you that it’s okay to feel like this now and again, it’s important to learn how to deal with our emotions.
Many events in life are out of our control, we just have to learnt to deal with them! I have had some wonderful uni offers so I’m happy with that at least.
Recent events have shown me how precious life is and everyday life processes are too. It’s illustrated to me how I should appreciate small things in life more. I have written a list of more simple pleasures I enjoy. I am going to try and let myself achieve some of these every month. Sometimes I find myself so encroached in a routine of the same activities I do because I enjoy them. I want to try and have new experiences even if they scare me. I want to have new experiences that I want to do for myself and no one else. Even if no one wants to go to the theatre or look round a castle, it’s important to do activities for you now and again! Life can be so hectic, it’s important to slow down now and again.
I hope everyone is well and school is going ok. Sending you all good vibes, Larissa xo